The lack of real these days is sickening.
Thus inspiring the conclusion track of PURP THEORY VOL. II ( here after referred to as #PTv2) - "F.P.F.15" which also features my ILL LYRICIST LEAGUE, INC. label mate Citi Boi Meech.
The last year has been crazy and amazing....
I was diagnosed with a Hidradenitis Suppurativa and still managed to open my 2nd business. Despite drama and, utter chaos that pushed back the completion of #PTv2. so much so that, l was too "throw-ed" to actually set a new formal release date for my project...
No. I never stopped recording during the months that followed. But, to say that I was" seriously distracted and life was taxing" is putting it very mild. My mothers slogan "the word friend should be removed from the dictionary." echoed in my ears 24/7 and NEVER felt more true. Yet instill, I adopted my own slogan "My circle got smaller as my dreams got bigger." as, I vowed to eliminate all instances of Fake, Phony and, Flaw from my life. POINT BLANK, PERIOD.
That meant sayonara "naysayers, non believers, and anyone who straddled the fence or attempted to discourage me." It even meant standing my ground with certain family members. They needed to see that this is my life, and though I may not be punching a clock as they think I should. I've found peace and TRUE happiness. And, that all I want from them was their support and for them to be happy for me.
See, I am not chasing "fortune and fame" or a dream for that matter. I make music because it keeps me sane and truly brings me joy. I suffered with depression early in my adult years. So much so that I could probably take an entire bottle of PM's to this date and all that would happen is some trembling and good long nap. A fact i'm not proud of. But, after being diagnosed with Hidradenitis Suppurativa little over a year ago, and realizing that stress could severely disfigure my body. As it is believed to be the primary trigger of my condition . I was forced to reflect and come to terms with God. And in doing so I realized that, the only time in my adult life that I was truly happy was when I made music.
In my opinion, You could probably ask 9 out of 10 people who've attempted to "end it all" what was truly the issue and there response would be "loneliness or feeling alone. and over whelmed with other people's expectations."
However, I found two true friends! and what makes them so true is there ability to JUST listen...
Friend 1: God
Friend 2: My microphone...
You see, allot of folk don't realize that a friend confiding in them, doesn't make them a certified therapist. And that simply giving someone the opportunity to vocalize what's stressing them and pushing the conversation onward and elsewhere can trigger and/or correct the rhythm of rationality necessary to maintain mental stability. Because dwelling on the inflictions issues issues by "non-professionals" typically does more damage than repair.
Thus inspiring the conclusion track of PURP THEORY VOL. II ( here after referred to as #PTv2) - "F.P.F.15" which also features my ILL LYRICIST LEAGUE, INC. label mate Citi Boi Meech.
The last year has been crazy and amazing....
I was diagnosed with a Hidradenitis Suppurativa and still managed to open my 2nd business. Despite drama and, utter chaos that pushed back the completion of #PTv2. so much so that, l was too "throw-ed" to actually set a new formal release date for my project...
No. I never stopped recording during the months that followed. But, to say that I was" seriously distracted and life was taxing" is putting it very mild. My mothers slogan "the word friend should be removed from the dictionary." echoed in my ears 24/7 and NEVER felt more true. Yet instill, I adopted my own slogan "My circle got smaller as my dreams got bigger." as, I vowed to eliminate all instances of Fake, Phony and, Flaw from my life. POINT BLANK, PERIOD.
That meant sayonara "naysayers, non believers, and anyone who straddled the fence or attempted to discourage me." It even meant standing my ground with certain family members. They needed to see that this is my life, and though I may not be punching a clock as they think I should. I've found peace and TRUE happiness. And, that all I want from them was their support and for them to be happy for me.
See, I am not chasing "fortune and fame" or a dream for that matter. I make music because it keeps me sane and truly brings me joy. I suffered with depression early in my adult years. So much so that I could probably take an entire bottle of PM's to this date and all that would happen is some trembling and good long nap. A fact i'm not proud of. But, after being diagnosed with Hidradenitis Suppurativa little over a year ago, and realizing that stress could severely disfigure my body. As it is believed to be the primary trigger of my condition . I was forced to reflect and come to terms with God. And in doing so I realized that, the only time in my adult life that I was truly happy was when I made music.
In my opinion, You could probably ask 9 out of 10 people who've attempted to "end it all" what was truly the issue and there response would be "loneliness or feeling alone. and over whelmed with other people's expectations."
However, I found two true friends! and what makes them so true is there ability to JUST listen...
Friend 1: God
Friend 2: My microphone...
You see, allot of folk don't realize that a friend confiding in them, doesn't make them a certified therapist. And that simply giving someone the opportunity to vocalize what's stressing them and pushing the conversation onward and elsewhere can trigger and/or correct the rhythm of rationality necessary to maintain mental stability. Because dwelling on the inflictions issues issues by "non-professionals" typically does more damage than repair.
Once I came to terms with that, I told myself "if Hidradenitis Suppurativa was going to eventually make me look like a monster, I needed to stop wasting time and really go for it. " I spent many nights conducting online research, and realized 2 very important facts...
1.) The internet is a gift and a curse. Yes, it's often informative. But, in reference to medical conditions, more attention is given to worse case scenarios often form place not as medically advanced . Which would cause anyone to feel like doomsday is near before realizing that their case is mild and have the advantage over most whom they feature just by having access to the internet.
2.) Everyone I looked up to in the music industry really broke threw around my age. So, I began to be much more disciple with my craft and was so motivated and inspired that nothing or no one could stop me.
People who din't take me seriously began truly listen to my lyrics and in fact began to mention that I was making my best music thus far cause even though we still crunk up and partied on #PTv2, it's apparent that "💩 got real" in the midst of recording the album and I spoke from the purest of places, my heart and, by the grace of God. The plethora of "Good vibes" combined with my new found inner peace afford me some truly priceless friendships and networking opportunities.
I linked up with Bo "Da Khemist" by sheer chance (recognized by Hip Hop Weekly for being among the top 100 indie producers) Ans as fate would have it, I gained a priceless mentor and great friend. In fact, he ended up being the host of #PTV2. I was also introduced to "Pebo Florida" (a former Deepside Ent. recording act) on some R. Kelly Feay. Usher "same girl" type scenario... Which resulted in an epic collaboration we call "Playa Ass Partner" featured on #PTV2.
But, I hate to go on and on so in conclusion... Life is short and Y.O.L.O. so aim for the stars and be relentless in your pursuit of happiness. Believe in yourself and never let anyone discourage you.
"FPF15" 2x a day.... Keep the fake, phony and flaw away!!!!"
And though I can't leak the album version, here's an advance.... the Gun State DJ's mix of "FPF15" featuring Citi Boi Meet and myself T.I.G.. 😵😵😵👇👇👇 👌✊ ✌️👍
1.) The internet is a gift and a curse. Yes, it's often informative. But, in reference to medical conditions, more attention is given to worse case scenarios often form place not as medically advanced . Which would cause anyone to feel like doomsday is near before realizing that their case is mild and have the advantage over most whom they feature just by having access to the internet.
2.) Everyone I looked up to in the music industry really broke threw around my age. So, I began to be much more disciple with my craft and was so motivated and inspired that nothing or no one could stop me.
People who din't take me seriously began truly listen to my lyrics and in fact began to mention that I was making my best music thus far cause even though we still crunk up and partied on #PTv2, it's apparent that "💩 got real" in the midst of recording the album and I spoke from the purest of places, my heart and, by the grace of God. The plethora of "Good vibes" combined with my new found inner peace afford me some truly priceless friendships and networking opportunities.
I linked up with Bo "Da Khemist" by sheer chance (recognized by Hip Hop Weekly for being among the top 100 indie producers) Ans as fate would have it, I gained a priceless mentor and great friend. In fact, he ended up being the host of #PTV2. I was also introduced to "Pebo Florida" (a former Deepside Ent. recording act) on some R. Kelly Feay. Usher "same girl" type scenario... Which resulted in an epic collaboration we call "Playa Ass Partner" featured on #PTV2.
But, I hate to go on and on so in conclusion... Life is short and Y.O.L.O. so aim for the stars and be relentless in your pursuit of happiness. Believe in yourself and never let anyone discourage you.
"FPF15" 2x a day.... Keep the fake, phony and flaw away!!!!"
And though I can't leak the album version, here's an advance.... the Gun State DJ's mix of "FPF15" featuring Citi Boi Meet and myself T.I.G.. 😵😵😵👇👇👇 👌✊ ✌️👍